Wow, i have actually made it.
I remember when i was only three months and dreaming about the day of reaching to six. I remember telling myself i will go out for dinner to celebrate or do something special. Well the day has come and gone and to be honest my skin has been amazing for the past few weeks i haven’t even been counting down or even excited about reaching it. So now writing this actually gets me to stop and realise what i have actually accomplished.
What i question A LOT was why my healing was so quick, whilst babies and children who have only used for a year and have extreme symptoms that go on for over a year. Was it because i saw a naturopath for 4 months to begin and was in absolute hell as she was pushing the toxins out of my body so quickly? I thought because i went back onto roids after it that everything i had gone through would have undone by re applying so much potent cream on myself every night for the next 3 – 4 months. Or is it because i went to seek help from a naturopath who has put me on strict diets and cleared all toxins from my body with heavy detoxing and blood, urine and hemaview tests. I honestly cannot say.
Someone recently asked me the strength of the roid creams i had been using. I remember as a kid for years i used advantan 0.1%, i also have Cortic DS 1% and Antroquoril 0.02%. There was one other that i used on my face and scalp but they all have crazy names that i would never pay attention to. I was so happily ignorant using my ‘magic cream’. I spent well over $60 on all these creams a good 9months ago and now i feel like burning them.
I would not say i am 100% healed. I have only really been back from Japan for a month or so and my skin was far from perfect when i was away. But ever since i have arrived home my skin has gotten better. I did have a small flare of spots on my neck, chest and arms which only lasted a couple of days (which i luckily captures on camera), but ever since then i have had a pretty cruisey time. I have definitely missed wearing what i want. I HATED waking up and worrying what i had in my cupboard that would cover my skin but not make me look too covered and would made me feel comfortable. I have been living in loose pure silk shirts in bright colours to brighten up my life. No seriously, i have THREE of the same shirt from Country Road all $150 each so yes they aren’t cheap, but they made me feel better and they looked pretty so it was worth it.
I still have dry wrists and wrinkly inner elbows that looks like old eczema and occasional very small patches on my face, neck and legs and i couldn’t care less. I have completely re-bounded from being in what felt like a black hole of ungliness and feeling sorry for myself. And it couldnt be any better timing as this is the year of all my friends and i turning 21! So yes i have already been to a couple of parties, and no i still refuse to drink alcohol till i have been completely healed or when i reach my birthday in August (around my 1year mark) – which ever comes first.
I have completely given up my bad habit of tanning beds and spray tans as i am worried of the chemicals that are inside and if they will aggravate my skin, instead i have found this amazing tan that is all natural and organic and you apply in like a moisturiser tan but instead it contains no moisturiser and builds in around 4 hours.
So yes life is sweet again. I hope no one thinks i am bragging, but rather giving them hope that soon this will be them too. You will look at life through different eyes. One small patch of eczema means nothing to me, and having normal un-tanned natural skin is a blessing. I am so very lucky, and so is everyone else too, as they will one day be healed.
I will continue to update my progress on here and on the ITSAN fb page. Please feel free to ask me any questions. XX
MY SKIN TODAY: