So i have a fair bit to update.
The week before Christmas i had scratched the inside of my elbows through my cotton gloves during my sleep so badly that it was weeping and raw. I think my body has become immune to scratching whilst asleep through my gloves, which kinda gives off a burning/carpet burn feel once i wake up in the morning – not fun! I was sick of my useless gloves so i ran out and bought a tight compression bandage for each of my elbows that sit nicely and cover from my underarm to wrist. I also wear my gloves just to be safe. I tend to wear these bandages now even when itchy during the day as a lot of it i think is looking at it and feeling itchy as routine (all in my head). So covering it up and being out of sight has made me feel better, and it feels better on the creases of my elbows where it gets hot. The rest of my skin also wasn’t looking as good as it has been. My mother even said it to me and i immediately felt upset.
So i was very excited to spend the next week over Christmas at the Sunshine Coast and in the beautiful salt water beaches. Whenever i am at the beach for a good period of time (like a week or so) my skin changes incredibly, for the better. The salt heals all my wounds, pimples, red lumps and bumps and the itching goes down a lot. So you can understand why i love going to the beach. Like normal after two or three days my skin had cleared a lot. Sometimes i think it may be a bit of camouflage (like i have said before from the sun evening my skin tone out) but i also feel a bit of sun or peel is good for my skin and to encourage fresh new skin. I was hoping my skin would stay nice and clear at least for a couple of days when i return back to Brisbane so i could make an evening out of new years night. Although as soon as i returned, the next day my skin broke out worse than ever. Big deep pimples and bumps that when you scratch the head off it would weep and become twenty times more itchy. It spread all over my shoulders, chest, arms, legs and neck even when i had thought my neck had healed as i only used steroids on it for about a few months and it was looking clear/the skin was naturally creating moisture.
So my new years night was not what i was hoping it to be. My skin had flared again ruining the chances of me wearing an outfit that i haven’t been able to wear in months. Depressed and very upset i decided to go to a friends small party at around 11pm before the countdown to be with my partner. A lot of the people there smoked and i think thats what triggered the flare to increase even more as i was probably breathed in second hand smoke for a good two hours. I went home due to excessive itching and noticed all my pimple lumps were very inflamed, raised and super itchy. I decided to shower and lather myself in apple cider vinegar which immediately dries out any weeping. I refused to use moisturiser because as soon as my skin was moist it would weep and become raised, red and itchy again.
I have refused to use moisturiser for the last three days to try and dry out all the pimples except for my face and neck.
Today i went to the Royal Woman’s Hospital for my yearly x-ray for my scoliosis. Ironically the doctor was talking to me about my eczema rather than my back. He was telling me that steroids are only a short term fix and that i should try a cream called ‘Calmurid’ which contains lactic acid and urea which he said was urine. I was just surprised that he was a doctor and wasn’t pushing me to buy steroids. I think it came down to the fact that he has eczema and knows the core facts about prescription steroid creams. So if a doctor doesn’t use them, why should anyone else? He was very helpful and told me he swore by it and buys it in bulk himself, so i am going to do a bit more research on it. Honestly, i am educated enough now to know that one cream isn’t going to cure my eczema, and that it isn’t just eczema i am dealing with but internal problems such as leaky gut and TSW. Although, finding a helpful cream definitely would not hurt. Another positive is that my mother said my face was looking better, which i think is true. My cheeks don’t look so patchy and red and haven’t weeped for a few days. So i hope its not just the effects of the beach but the start of healing. Lets pray so. Happy Birthday to my mother for tomorrow.